Going through the motions and general blurriness

I thought I'd update first on Logan...he is doing okay. His fever is gone ( my bet was the shots), His rash is spreading and looking like tiny blisters. I'm fairly positive it's hand and mouth cause he acts like his mouth hurts too. But as with all "baby" things it's a virus and there isn't much to do. His little molars are coming in though and he wouldn't sleep till I just put him in the crib and told him "Mommy did all she can do, you're on your own." Honestly if I kept holding him I would have dropped him or something. It really reminded me of when He was little little and those 2 & 5 am feedings. I remember waking up holding him and thinking "how long have we been here?" What's always better is waking up and seeing sunlight where there wasn't before. Those were the same mornings that I would put him to bed and Steve would come in and want to "say hi." I know I came off seeming alittle too angry about it. But triple lack of sleep, desperation and alittle jealousy of the 9 hour sleepfest that he got and what can I say. I always liked when Steve would say "man I'm sleepy!...I need to take a nap" (GGGRRRRR!) But this too shall pass...My dad reminded me of it today that after all this teething crap is over it gets smoother. Days like today I'm jealous of Trisha's pillow corner. Hmmmm.....I have been getting backrubs from Buddha Baby lately. He likes to lay on top of my back. Now all I have to do is train him to knead with his hands. We'll work on pressure points later...lol. Well I weighed in at ww today. I lost 1.8...so i'm well on my way to my 25 lb mini goal. I still have 8.2 lbs left to lose by August ...It's a very realistic thing I think. I was very inspired by the winner of some contest. She had lost 150 lbs or something like that and still had 100 lbs to go. Her attitude was awesome. I felt recharged cause it's almost all attitude really. Those voices real or not real that say "we can't afford WW, or you can do it on your own, or it's just one day, we can splurge" will be turned off today... well baby boy is screaming for some reason...that totals 30 minutes of naptime...ugh...