26 lbs of Fun

Logan played hard and slept hard today. We woke up at the butt crack of dawn and he played till his nap at 10 30. He slept till 1:00 ate and played some more. We went swimming again for an hour. This time sans diaper....then later sans clothing. He actually dove in and stuck his head in the water so I really have to watch him. He wasn't scared when the water got in his eyes though. Made a salad with lettuce from my garden. I didn't plant the lettuce, i spilled the seeds and now I have this very pretty french mesclin sp? garden. It was actually really good. But I got sick...i don't know why I'm alittle nauseated and have had heartburn today... Logan is talking up a storm he says goober, cheese, shoes...just about anything I say. And I repeat everything so he can hear it. We walked and then went to Braums and got ice cream...yeah it's ridiculous. I know I was just thirsty...but oh well. If I lose this week it's a miracle. I am trying still though. I only had a salad for lunch for petes sake...but I did have fresh garlic from my garden in tonights spaghetti sauce...I love enjoying the "fruits" of my labor.

"Chunk a luv" picture

I was thinking about my time at St. Johns after having L when he was jaundiced and they told us that he might need a transfusion etc...the first nurse we had came in and she was a nice african american lady and she looked at him and said..."oh he's just a little chunk a luv." Logan went swimming today and Looovved it. He was alittle scared at first. All he does when he's scared is squeel and laugh. So He splashed and played and loved it. He cried when I took him out. Mommy had a moment too. We tried a new church. Broadway Baptist Church in SS. It was nice. We aren't going to commit yet though..Anyway DH takes L to the nursery and he cried alittle when dh left him. So church is over and we head down there ...the long way and we finally get there and he is screaming and red and splotchy, so he's been crying for awhile. He didn't stop when I took him...so I was getting upset too....He acted scared that we were going to leave him again. I may have to be a lunchlady at his schools so I can be with him. Not for him, but for me. :)

Little boy where did you come from?

Sometimes I don't know. I am a very social person that's true but I'm also alittle timid with strangers. I think that's a learned response. Perhaps we are either afraid and shy or unafraid and outgoing. I was shy and never spoke when I was young and truth be told I had a social anxiety growing up. I think alot of it had to do with self esteem and self confidence. Who knows what kind of life I would have had had I thrown caution into the wind. We loaded up and headed to my ww meeting which was cancelled...which is fine cause I feel a stall in my progress. I think it's my body remembering that I was here before and need time to regroup...that's what I'm telling myself...we went to the strip mall by the house and looked in Cato where L pretended that the security tags were telephones. Everything is a phone to this li'l dude. It's hilarious. Then onto payless where he scored some stickers and they measured his feet again. He is still good on shoes....and when did payless sell $20.00 shoes for kids? That's not less IMO. I'll be heading to Walls in Shawnee again for some Nikes for $14.00. So Logan flirted with the sales ladies in Cato, Payless, and Hallmark and some ladies that were eating in Subway. he was playing Peek a boo with anyone that looked his way. I need to post a sign on his stroller warning strangers not to look at him or they will be sucked into 30 minutes of playtime. We went to Bueno for dinner (I know!) Logan flirted with the booths next to us all evening. At one point putting his hands over his face and saying "boo" then dropping his sippy on the floor he said "UH OH" the rest of the night. This boy is a nut. He has been coming up to his sippy cup and talking to me...He's asking a question...he asks and asks and asks and then when I say "no" he laughs, grabs it and turning it over immediately to then bang on the coffee table. Not just that it's the t.v. too. He runs up to the t.v. and then stops , turns back to me and then goes right for the buttons..If I say no...he laughs when he does it. He doesn't respond to spanks. He does respond to playgym time outs. I definitely have my work cut out for me.

Warning...this message will repeat....

Honey don't read this..seriously...this is so I won't yell at you!!! You know when you are dating someone and they do things that are alittle annoying but nothing you can't overlook cause hey you love them...bla bla bla. Parents are so right cause the little things that you love or annoy you turn into huge arguments later. Why is that? I think it's my week to not get along with DH. We are getting along okay....enough to not be crying all day. When we first started and got into arguments it was all me venting and getting mad and He would be totally quiet and shut down. It bothered me this weekend that he shut down alittle. But we were at my parents so it was welcomed cause you don't want to yell when you are at your parents. Then when later as we got more serious he would start arguing like me and I cheered..."Yeah...you got mad at me instead of emotional abandonment!" Tonight though we actually had a good discussion. It's an ongoing issue with us. If you are a stay at home mom are you expected to have a spotless house? (Note: I am not a housewife, or a stay at home wife like he called me...if I was yes the house would be clean cause I wouldn't have a child or a job to do) I agree that I could do better, but I reminded him of my past which he seemed to not remember at all so that argument flopped. He told me that the house was cleaner than before Logan. I think perhaps cause we weren't home much, ate out more and he pitched in alot more with cleaning. We would have our 5 minutes of cleaning and the whole house would be clean. He told me that what set him off about my cleaning was that his friend couldn't come inside. Here's the deal I don't care who you are...you need 5 minutes to clean up. I hear by the way so and so is coming over...I expect him to clean or straighten or do whatever is in his conscience to do. If you do the inviting you do the cleaning imo. Of course I didn't want him coming in so I didn't move either. Maybe the whole inviting someone over to hang is something men should clear first. I'm supposed to clean for him too...which doesn't help. I actually could have more clean if I wasn't expected to straighten up his crap too. I don't think being his wife doesn't make me a mother to him. He keeps telling me "I just didn't expect this" I envisioned something else.....to which I say don't we all. We all had dreams and idealised versions of our future. When has reality every come close to your fantasy...and I'm saying Fantasy for a reason. Okay I'm done. I did not get mad ...too mad. I just have to wave him off and dismiss it. He is just a man after all and when he takes care of Logan...it's like a tornado hit. Food is left on the high chair...diapers are open on the changing table...clothes are thrown on the floor...diapers are sometimes missed...etc... Babies are alot of work and I'm not sure he realizes all the time. MNO is Sunday though Yipee...i'm going to enjoy it! I have WW tomorrow morning I am weighing in about 2 lbs less...but as with anything who knows by tomorrow my hands and feet could swell....

Jakers!

I'm procrastinating but I have to take a shower and get some milk today. Ugh. The dishes are calling me...the laundry too. Instead I'm sitting here doing my usual reading and sticking to the computer like glue I know I need to get up and get with my life but I'll take denial and avoidance! Nah... We went to the park yesterday for a short and sweet playdate. Logan took off and ran towards the duck pond. He fell a few times running from me...I need to check his shoes and make sure they aren't too small. I don't know why I didn't check it. I ended up putting him in the stroller and then the geese at the pond started intimidating us and I thought it was gonna get Trisha...she ducked behind Tally...tee hee. It was fun overal. I almost turned in a woman who pulled up at the park and 7 kids jumped out of her ford escort(imagine a clown car!). She was on the phone and all these kids were in the porta potty. I was alittle worried. Must be a cheap daycare! When she left she pulled out the other direction so I couldn't get a tag. Afterwards I went to Target and bought a new messenger bag/diaper bag and a baby boat and sunglasses for L. We are starting to talk about our family vacation to Houston this year. Craig let us know when you want us...we were thinking June but we know that you have plans to come down. Anyway Steve has to go to Conneticut in June for a Site Move. It'll be great for him to learn. I'd better jump in the shower.

Weirdo's at Walmart....

Yes it's my only shopping destination of late. I needed of all things butcher twine....for my set it and forget it Ron Popeil Rotisserie...(i have perfected it!). They quit stocking Baby ALL detergent and I thought "do I really want Dreft?" so I opted for the Free and Clear. I guess since he's a boy now perhaps I can go for the gentle detergent...after all baby detergent just has the smell goods...oh but how I love the smell of baby clothes...*tear*. Standing in line at walmart I made the mistake of making eye contact with a lady who REALY needed to talk. She grabbed me by the shorts pockets and commented on them...told me how she hated wearing shorts and had to for her son's school day tomorrow. How she's a big fat cow but she's wearing these white shorts...I jumped when she touched me cause I was unloading my cart...then I faked busy with the baby and broke eye contact..she proceeded to tell the cashier about her son getting swats at school. .... Why did you pick me to comiserate about being fat and wearing shorts...If I was skinny...she might not have said a word. She did say "Lucky" maybe cause my smoking hot shorts...(tee hee) But honestly why do strangers have to talk about their weight with me? I have made a promise to not talk to strangers about my opinion of myself. I really need to work on what I say and how I act. I do love myself for the most part. I am more than my size I realize that fact. I want to portray a confident beautiful person not someone who is insecure about their weight. I know I do use this blog to vent about that however. It's not just me I know. Skinny women talk like that. This weekend at my moms, my cousin Caitlin commented on wishing she "had the skinny" that my other cousin had. This girl is gorgeous. She has a beautiful healthy teenager's body....and the cousin in question is a tall stringbean girl with a boys body. I commented on how she's grown sooo tall in such a short time and has a long torso, of which i am only envious for the pregnancy benefits. They start in on their self depreciating comments. I had to turn the conversation away quickly. I remember commenting on being fat when I wasn't. I would love to have my teenagers body again, but I hated it then... We are taught that that is what we are supposed to talk about. Weight and feeling fat are very very personal...we don't share intimate details about other things nearly as quickly. In the first 5 or 10 minutes a woman can find out how another woman feels about herself. But I was thinking about it the other day...and getting emotional. Every time in the past I would feel good about myself and think of other things that I had going...I would hear my critics so loudly. They would tell it to my face....like my boyfriend that said "you would be so hot if you worked out alittle"(....to a girl that worked out every day and dieted nonstop in highschool). Comments to my friend (really she wasn't for telling me) that "so and so" said he'd never go out with you cause your butt was soo big." I could never be friendly with this loser cause he would always think I liked him...and say crap like that...Or one that was especially bad was in my jr year history class a senior boy came and sat next to the boy behind me...talking loudly about girls and mentioned that I was cute "why don't you ask her out" to which the boy replied "no way...she's fat!" To all of those people I want to say "how dare you judge someone that didn't ask you in the first place!" There are those caring few that also feel the need to "let you know" to them I want to say "thanks...I haven't been able to look in the mirror for years now" "thank god you told me BEFORE I sent in my headshots to John Ford" "You mean the world didn't become addicted to Crack I thought they were getting skinny?" I could do this all night...but my vent is coming to a close and with that I will say that I will try to stop talking about weight. My friend in High School used to stand at our lockers and talk about every girl that walked by and how fat they were. I remember once I said..."you make me feel fat when you say that because I look at her and I see somebody smaller than me." I remember she flubbed and flushed and couldn't come up with anything else to say. It's true for me then it's true for me now...and it's true for everyone. We watch t.v. Our daughters hear us talk and they will think the same thing unless we stop. Okay so now who's the lady that really needed to talk! One last thing...Jessica you've touched me God be with your family

Mothers Day 06

We had a pretty good mothers day. Steve and I loaded up the boy Saturday morning and drove to Shawnee to see my mom walking around (a thank you). We then went to my Dad's Mom and Dad's house and had BBQ and then Grandmother opened her presents and then we went outside to take pictures...Not much excitement there. ...except my uncle Mike saved the family homestead. They had a plastic gift bag next to a candle and it caught fire. Mike grabbed it and threw it in the sink. We were about to go outside to take pictures too so if it had been one minute later the house would have surely caught fire. Saturday Night Logan didn't sleep well and tossed and turned all night. So I didn't sleep at all. Sunday we went to my mom and dad's church. We got there for class, but as soon as I sat down, I felt logan's pants...uh oh...he peed through...went home changed his clothes...forgot extra diapers or any other pants...got back just in time for church, Steve is holding Logan...peed out of the diaper again...this time on steve's pants...So they went home and I stayed. Parent's choice diapers...suck..just get the more expensive ones...it saves you water and detergent..and not to mention gas.. We had a great visit then with my mom's family. They all came over for fried catfish, chicken and all the sides...so yes...I was terrible on my ww... We went shopping last night though and are starting a budget. Only after groceries, we have enough for staples..but you should see our cupboards and freezer. We also started the week out right by walking 2 miles... Okay enough of that...Logan has started an exciting thing...He understands me now...I mean I know he does. Tonight Steve wanted an animal cracker and I told Logan, "take the cracker to daddy"....and he did...twice...He also took stuff to me. It was neat for me...I know it's not that big of a deal to some people but it's clicking is all I'm saying. Well Logan fell asleep at 8 so I have to go ...cause who knows when he'll wake up.

thanks guys....

I think its just something that will rear it's ugly head every now and again....

short and sweet

a little motivations for my ww buddies.. "If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten." "cultivate in yourself what you admire in others" "If I think I can or I think I can't, I'm right" here's my progress so far and it looks okay...yes..i'm totally telling you all how much ...just bear in mind that I had a 10lb child 15 months ago.... I will post my news tomorrow...so far so good...Tonight I made steak, grilled veg, rice, salad and tomatoes that were awesome!...from Braums of all places! We walked 2 miles tonight....that makes 10 miles for me for the week so far and i plan on walking friday and saturday...cause i have to admit i'm starting to get addicted now...in a few months i'll try to add some weightlifting in too. Did I say a short post...ha... Lisa

Apple Eggroll Recipe

Apple Eggrolls POINTS® values per serving | 1 Servings | 4 Desserts | Great with light ice cream or even cheese. Can use pears or any other fruit, might adjust seasonings however. Ingredients 1 medium apple(s) 4 items wonton wrapper(s) 1 serving Parkay Spray 2 tsp McNeil Nutritionals SPLENDA No Calorie Sweetener 1 tsp ground cinnamon Instructions Peel, core and chop apple. In a small bowl mix apple, splenda and cinnamon to taste. Preheat oven to 400, spray pan with pam. in a separate plate, place one wonton wrapper, fill with 1/4 of apple mixture. Spray once with Parkay Spray. Fold corners of wonton and spray again. Repeat for remaining. Place in oven and bake till browned. Remove and let cool for at least 5 minutes.

Rockin Logan...Tweet, tweetle dee deet.

Well I haven't p0sted in awhile. I went out with "the gals" tuesday night. It was alot of fun...i didn't take my camera though (bad Lisa). I got to meet two great ladies who were alot of fun. We ate at the Elephant Bar. It was okay....nothing the other girls ordered was right so it wasn't good for them cause they had been there before.... Anywhoo..went way way over points this week. My program says -23...uh oh. I have been walking 2 miles every day this week though so i think it's going to be okay....I've been really good yesterday and today. I made tortilla soup though and i forgot a key step...cause my velveeta curdled and it looked disgusting...but we ate it anyway...it tasted okay but wasn't creamy in any way...bluck... Logan climbs in the lazyboys on his own now. I go to the kitchen and come back to see him rocking in the chair..it's kind of scary so i stay close but he gets down fine too... he is so funny now too. He likes to turn in circles and then stops and has the funniest look on his face... His looks are hilarious now too. He has one where he bows his head and looks up at me from the side...i guess you have to be there...tooo funny. oh and his "sweet eyes" are cute too. he bats his eyes at you. AWWWW.... We have to get this stuff on video I know...

30 second post.....

I wanted to drop a line... Logan's rash is better just alittle on his limbs...no longer on his chest and back and butt...(most important to me!) Cutting his teeth...but only gets angry at night... climbing up the rockers and rocking it standing up...seems to occupy HOURS not much for eating... however steve and I pigged out on Pizza all day...we even splurged on papa johns and i ordered with extra sauce and well done...omg...it was the best pizza i've ever had... food is the devil...... reading a really good book "Love Walked in" by Maria de los Santos Anyway I have two chapters left and i need to change the gross sheets on my bed...i always wait too late and then sleep in the dirty ones...yuck...i really need a wife

Good Recipe...

Cheesy Chicken Crockpot Spaghetti 1 cup = 4.5 pts Ingredients

12 1/2 oz canned chicken 1 pound Kraft Velveeta Light Reduced-Fat Pasteurized Processed Cheese Product 1 pound uncooked whole-wheat spaghetti 15 1/2 oz Eden Organic Diced Tomatoes with Green Chilies 1 small can mushrooms 1 medium green pepper(s) 1 small onion(s) 1 can Campbell's 98% Fat-Free Cream Of Mushroom Soup 1 can Campbell's 98% Fat-Free Cream Of Chicken Soup

Instructions

boil pasta, drain...dice veggies & chunk up velveeta, drain and flake chicken combine all ingredients in pam sprayed crock pot and stir. Cook for 2 1-2 hours

I Like to Move it Move it!

This is the song that has been sung around the house for the last week. We have the movie Madagascar and Logan loves that part. He gets down. It's too cute. We don't have a video of it yet we have to charge it back up. yesterday he was playing and had the remote to his ear....holding it with his shoulder like daddy...He said "hi da....(lots of talking that was not understood) okay bah" I kid you not. He even threw the phone down after that. It was really too cute. I almost cried. But I was weepy yesterday anyway. Lack of sleep makes me emotional...I'm like a child in that way. today we had a lazy day. Ran to wal-mart where everyone else in sand springs seemed to go. We got a new dvd player cause ours just quit. and steve got a cable so we can put our mini dvs on to dvd. We really need to find half of them...hmmm.. We came home and ate bean tostadas...my own little throw together. I buy so many corn tortillas just for that reason. If we want tacos...we have tacos, if we want tostadas we do. Anyway tonight we will be eating my ww recipe for cheesy chicken spaghetti. Yummmo... Alittle later...or right now i am going to run to foleys and look at clothes and stuff...i was lusting after an outfit at walmart and didn't get it...it didn't fit me...and the shirt was made for small bussoomed people not me that's for sho. okay well i'm gonna get..hope everyone has a good weekend...peace out

Going through the motions and general blurriness

I thought I'd update first on Logan...he is doing okay. His fever is gone ( my bet was the shots), His rash is spreading and looking like tiny blisters. I'm fairly positive it's hand and mouth cause he acts like his mouth hurts too. But as with all "baby" things it's a virus and there isn't much to do. His little molars are coming in though and he wouldn't sleep till I just put him in the crib and told him "Mommy did all she can do, you're on your own." Honestly if I kept holding him I would have dropped him or something. It really reminded me of when He was little little and those 2 & 5 am feedings. I remember waking up holding him and thinking "how long have we been here?" What's always better is waking up and seeing sunlight where there wasn't before. Those were the same mornings that I would put him to bed and Steve would come in and want to "say hi." I know I came off seeming alittle too angry about it. But triple lack of sleep, desperation and alittle jealousy of the 9 hour sleepfest that he got and what can I say. I always liked when Steve would say "man I'm sleepy!...I need to take a nap" (GGGRRRRR!) But this too shall pass...My dad reminded me of it today that after all this teething crap is over it gets smoother. Days like today I'm jealous of Trisha's pillow corner. Hmmmm.....I have been getting backrubs from Buddha Baby lately. He likes to lay on top of my back. Now all I have to do is train him to knead with his hands. We'll work on pressure points later...lol. Well I weighed in at ww today. I lost 1.8...so i'm well on my way to my 25 lb mini goal. I still have 8.2 lbs left to lose by August ...It's a very realistic thing I think. I was very inspired by the winner of some contest. She had lost 150 lbs or something like that and still had 100 lbs to go. Her attitude was awesome. I felt recharged cause it's almost all attitude really. Those voices real or not real that say "we can't afford WW, or you can do it on your own, or it's just one day, we can splurge" will be turned off today... well baby boy is screaming for some reason...that totals 30 minutes of naptime...ugh...

Weird Reactions

Logan has had a weird reaction to his Dtap and is running a really high fever, and has a rash on his feet, hands legs and arms. It's alittle scary right now...oh yeah and i'm supposed to have jury duty tomorrow... We'll see....

Mommy goofed on the Height!!!

Logan is 34 inches tall. Misty I was reading your comment and thought...hmmm that's not right. I had to get my little paper. He was 31 at his 12 month check up ...so if he was suddenly 24, that would mean that he was in a terrible accident wouldn't it? Oh well my brain was alittle fried yesterday I suppose. I was sick all day from mexican food I ate at lunch. Steve was too. My stomach kinda bloated out and hurts. Last night I couldn't sleep cause I kept having twinges. Yuck. Today I may have soup all day. Oh yeah and my lost post was somehow recovered. Weird huh? Where did it go, did it have fun at least? It's not even listed on my page, it's called Sesame Street Overdose....

15 month check up

Logan is Huge!!! He's 34 inches tall and 26.4 lbs. He's 70% in weight and above 97% still in height. He's just such a big boy! He did really well at the dr's. Until the dreaded shot. But he bounced back pretty well and then opened the door and started running down the hallway. It was pretty funny. Dr. Zetik had to laugh about that. He's really healthy and a good eater so they liked that. Really Logan is such an easy baby it's crazy how good he is. And surprisingly healthy for a non-breastfed baby. He's never sick other than the usual cold here and there. We ate at Las Americas after that with Steve. I tried a healthier option....(coughing for emphasis). I'm over my points by 6 today...yuck...

Blogger Mishap

I wrote a huge blog yesterday only to have it error out and not post. So that sucks...It was long too. Logan has his 15 month checkup and we are leaving in 15 minutes but I want to take a picture of him today too to post. Had to call the gas company cause I smelled gas....I guess it was sewer gas cause that's the first thing he said when he came in. I appreciated him checking it though. I guess this weekend will be busy. We are going to change toilet rings and see if that fixes it and I am bagging up old mulch and planting flowers and remulching the front yard. I would so love to have the money to make round beds around the trees in the front. That would solve our lack of grass in that area. I will post again later when the babe is napping.

Sesame Street Overdose

Cookie Monster has nothing on this girl right here...by the way. Logan and I have been hanging out all day, here are some funny things he does everyday: * At least once a day he will bang on the television * He will always headbutt me before he kisses me, maybe following with a good ole finger jab up the nose * banging his sippy cup of milk on the coffee table is his favorite, then rubbing the milk in just for good measure...( and I wonder why my house smells) * sticks his fingers in his cheerios, or spaghettios or anything o'd. * dance when he eats * take his books from one room to another... * put his shoes or any other shoes on the coffee table * If outside, he will walk a few laps, eat some grass and dirt, sit on the ramp to the shed, and climb up the steps of the porch. * If we are at a park he will run to the nearest street, car, danger area....and immediately fall to his knees when I grab his hand * Immitate any burping noises or any other B noises.... I have signed up for my free trial of ww e-tools hoping it corrects any mistakes in my journalling and if it will help with menu planning. I think it would if my printer works but I can't get it to even intialize. Well I'm going to cuddle with Logan and see if he is getting sleepy.