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Life with my little boy is changing every day. I always thought a parent led their children and influenced their kids, but this boy has alot of will and personality for sure. It's going to be tough Im learning that now. We had a fun afternoon. We went to eat with my friend Misty and her little girl Ann-Marie. Logan was funny during lunch. The diner was crowded and it was "parisian seating"--that's my own definition where they put the tables close to each other so you can touch the people next to you. Logan was patting the woman next to him and at one point in their conversation they all laughed and Logan belted out this fake laugh. He wouldn't stop staring at them. It was hilarious, and annoying for them I'm sure. Then we went to LaFortune Park. I figured, hey give him a chance to play. Logan didn't care about the play equipment. He started running and laughing this squealing laugh till I caught him and grabbed his hand. I don't know why kids drop to their knees when you grab their hands. So he scraped his knees. Misty told me there was no wonder I'm losing weight. I had to think about it and yeah I'm getting alot of exercise not to mention weight lifting. After his total breakdown we came home and he slept for 3 hours. I was able to do alot of stuff. I watered the garden (my garlic is sprouting!) folded clothes and window shopped online. I also called the cable company to drop some of my cable service. Why I had to talk to three people and tell them all the same thing I'll never know. I was happy to know that they would get less money from me next month. Logan woke up in a bad mood. I think he got too hot and was thirsty. We went outside and played alittle with the dog and with this $2.00 garage sale toy I found. Logan liked it but didn't understand how to get it to spin. I think tomorrow we are going to hit some garage sales. Let Steve get in some study time and maybe do something in town park wise. I love spring weather, but it's feeling like summer weather.

New Jammies!

Today started out really badly, and ended up great. I woke up at 7:00 on the dot with Logan and in my sleepy attempt to make coffee i threw the grounds in the trash but the top wasn't on right (hard to explain). It ended up on the floor so my Murray Temper soared. I almost did a "Murray Flingback" but I refrained. It got better as the the day went on. I took the cushions and shade of the swing, Logan's Ball and toys out of the yard so it wouldn't blow away with the storm that never got here. I'm wanting some rain though. We went to the store and I picked up enough stuff for a couple of weeks (I think). We came home and I made Taco Soup so it would be ready when I got out of Weight Watchers. We then picked up Daddy from work so I could make the meeting. Steve carpools with a guy that doesn't get off till 5, and Steve get's off at 4:45. Anyway I went to the meeting and it was good. I like the group in my Friday morning group, but Thursday nights Steve can take care of Logan while I go. I like having it just for me. I'm always surprised by their scales cause it's lighter than mine. I was a good 1.5 lbs less there than I am here. So it was good. I lost 3.2 lbs this week and I didn't do great. I did have more veggies than normal. Logan wore his new Jammies this evening. he looks like such a big boy in them. I like the tighter fitting pjs cause they show off his toddler body ( ie: big belly and butt). He was so funny today. He keeps saying "clap" and will clap. He also has been laying on the floor and kind of singing. And he lays on his stomach to watch T.V. which is new. He was really sweet to Steve tonight. He came up to him and stroked his cheeks and beard and then kissed him. He is getting really sweet. He loves to lean against you. He will stop playing and come lay his head in my lap. The last picture I had to post because Logan's hair is so much like mine. Today with all the humidity and sweating when he plays, he had the cutest curls. It's fine too like mine. He's probably going to hate it. At least it's not thick though...he can gel it if he needs too. I couldn't get him to hold still to take these pics but his jammies have a baseball and bat on the front.  

Maladies

Not much to post today. I'm heading off to bed. I've had a tough day. Nothing out of the ordinary. I'm just not feeling good and right before I get sick, I always feel like i'm having a heart attack or something. I think this time it's a combination or queasy feelings and heartburn a pulled muscle and getting a cold. In the words of Steve, "you sure are sickly." Actually now that i remember past symptoms...it's definitely back and arm strain. when you have chest pain, you think well is my left arm hurting? That's never a good thing for a mom with a heavy kid who is also right handed, cause i'm hauling 30 lbs of squirmy and that's cause for alot of arm neck back strain. I took him to the library and he threw a fit cause i wouldn't let him run and pull all the books off the shelves... We went to our playdate today....um twice. i really need to keep a date book so i get the time right. Oh well It gave me a chance to drive through some of East Tulsa's scarier neighborhoods and remember why we opted for a 1950's house in Prattville. Well I need to get offline and rest and see what's up with all my pains...maybe if i'm lucky steve will rub my back.

Why do I love Mexican Food So??

Well I get an early night tonight. Logan is down for the night and it's 8:19. We had a good day with lots of running around. We went to Ross, Old Navy and then to eat with Steve around 12:30. Then I took Logan for a walk downtown. It was alot of fun. We went and saw my friends from my old job. They got to see why I don't keep in touch... Logan has discovered his nose. He woke up this morning with either a cold or allergies. I'm thinking just allergies cause what's coming out of it is clear (don't mean to be gross, lol). He was sticking his fingers up his nose all day, and mine too for that matter. So we ate at a really good mexican restaraunt here in tulsa called Las Americanas Restaraunt & Mercado. It was good. There's a market next door. I couldn't get over the prices and the amount of food. Mine was 5.95 with three enchiladas and rice and beans and iced tea. It wasn't Tex-Mex, it was really Mexican Food, and the salsa was fresh tasting which i always like. So it was the second night of fish and salad. You can't beat 4 pts for the whole meal and I went way over at lunch. I need to be better but in a way i'd rather eat the big meal for lunch and then not eat for dinner. Logan has started taking an interest in Baby Einstein again. Before he liked the shapes and music, now he's comprehending the puppet shows; He'll even laugh! Well that's all for now. I figure with Logan asleep so soon, I'll be up during the night or waking up at 6:30 again.

Nature Boy

For some reason I couldn't post last night. We had so much fun yesterday. Logan took a nap at 12:30, which is the lastest ever for him to take a nap. When He woke up we went outside for a minute. I decided he needed toys so we headed to Wal-Mart and picked up some bubbles, a big blue ball and a shovel and rake (so he could help me garden). We chased each other around the back yard and then we swang together. I finished planting all my root crops and went inside to make dinner. When Daddy came home we went back outside and played some more while he built our garden fence. This boy plays so hard...then he is worn out. He climbed up the steps to our house, chasing the dog. I saw the dog go down the steps and started running at full speed but he got excited and jumped to me, even though I wasn't even close. Poor guy fell and skinned his knee and finger. It wasn't bad at all, but he was so mellow for the rest of the night. He layed on Daddy and then on Mommy and kept turning to hug me. It was really sweet. This summer is going to be so fun cause this boy loves to be outside. 

Do you want some cheese with your whine?

My mood is so weird today. I'm nervous and anxious isn't that terrible? I just feel pent up and you know what that leads to... eating. Why are all my emotions tied to food? I wish it was tied to exercizing. I would be rock hard in that case. I'm doing great on weight watchers don't get me wrong. I'm actually on the cusp of a milestone. I haven't been this little since Steve and I got engaged believe it or not. I joined weight watchers then and lost 13 lbs. I lost enough that my dress had to be altered, so i quit trying to lose and just maintained till the wedding. Then I didn't have to worry about it. I'm married, let's get fat and happy right? So I have to keep my eyes on the prize. I've lost 29 lbs since last summer, and in reality i have 50 more lbs to go. So I'm not even halfway there. I need to refocus and act like i'm just beginning. It's hard to do that though when all your clothes are baggy. Granted they are huge clothes, but i noticed that i feel fat when i wear tighter clothes. I challenge everyone to buy underwear two sizes too small and see what i'm talking about. Okay and I'm also having a jealous day. Steve and I want friends, and we wonder why they don't magically appear. Seriously, our couple friends are either gone or don't have kids, that and the fact that we don't have a babysitting option makes it hard. I totally relate to the episode of "Yes Dear" where they have couple friends and the wife doesn't like the other wife, but the men are great friends. And the opposite has been true as well. Then reality sinks in that we are always busy or enjoying our boring lives every weekend anyway. Steve studies and I clean...woo hoo. We went to a church for awhile and Steve liked the preacher alot and they still play pool together...but honestly that excludes me totally. And I have mommy friends and we have organized mom nights out every month, but honestly that still feels like organized friendship. I'm terrible at being friends though cause I hate to act clingy when i meet someone new and the reality is i'm probably distant to everyone. And then i think of all my friends that live far away. If they lived here there would be no question that i would have people to spend time with. Steve and I are best friends but anyone can understand that you need more. In other words "wah wah wah" I need to stop whining about life and do something. That sums up my friendless, fat feeling frenzy. Logan is awake and talking to me. Telling me "lets go outside, quit your whining!! So I'm off to garden some more. Today and tomorrow I'm supposed to plant my turnips and finish onions. Oh and I need to water the grass seed that steve set out yesterday...I don't think he followed the almanac though...it said it was a barren period. We'll see. 

Weekend Update

We are having a good weekend so far. Friday I planted garlic and onions. Logan had fun playing in the dirt. He enoyed chasing the dog around the backyard and playing with sticks. I am really sore now though. I'm actually using the Farmers Almanac to plant because i never seem to get things right. I have a black thumb. Saturday we went to my parents in the morning and had a good visit. My mom is doing really well. She was doing better than she was last time I saw her. Hopefully it will continue. Logan had fun playing in their backyard. When he came in he smelled like a little boy...(tear). We then went to Steve's folks and enjoyed a huge dinner from his mom. Cecil was making ribs but didn't think they would take as long as they did. We ended up having chicken. When we left at about 8, they were taking them off and his mom said they were falling off the bone. I did try smoked cabbage. Doesn't sound that good, but it was pretty tasty, but i love cabbage anyway. So today it's back to the grindstone, cleaning the kitchen, doing laundry. We might make it to the park today and walk. I do have to plant my lilac bush. We bought it two weekends ago and haven't had a warm dry day to do it. Thought I would leave a picture of the boy for you all to enjoy. He was just waking up in this picture (that explains the red cheek!) 

Mom

This is a tribute to my mom. You all know that i am worried about her since her knee replacement surgery. But my love for my mom was not always apparent to me. See we are identicle in personality sometimes, and yet I took after my fathers side on looks, etc. I've learned that i never fully appreciated her. I hope I live long enough to see my kids appreciate me. Those that don't know my mom might see how young she looks, well i think she does. I've always found her beautiful even if she doesn't always think so. Her hair has always been really dark, her skin olive and her eyes are the lightest blue. She's a small woman even when she called herself big. She is funny and caring but would hurt anyone who hurts those she loves. She loves God, loves my dad and isn't afraid to show us how much. She cares for people above all else. She is very good at caring for sick and injured, and scared. She has bailed me out more times than i can count and forgiven me more times than that. She never shyed away from praying with a patient in her clinic. One thing that she gave me that sometimes gets me in trouble is her total honesty and candor about who she is and how she feels. She expresses herself totally. When she's angry you know it and when shes happy you know it. She crys when she's angry, but that's it. Dad is the cryer in our family and i got that from him. I wasn't always kind to her, sometimes I did things because I knew that she would be hurt. That's a terrible thing to say. But one day I gave in and let her love me. Then one day i loved myself. She stayed with me in the delivery room with my son and stayed up and cried with me in the hospital when we had to go back to the hospital. She helped me with those first few days home, then she did the best thing, she left me alone to learn for myself. After having a baby of my own I learned why my mom fought for me, felt hurt so strongly when I hurt myself. I learned why she wouldn't stay out of my business and ask annoying questions about where I was and who I was with. (Like a splinter digging its way inside, or the Viet Cong :)). Well, She was always apart of me. I just had to realize it. Cause every day i watch as this little piece of me falls and hurts himself and know why I have such a great mom and hope that it runs in the family.

What a Character!!!

Good morning everyone! I was up so late creating this wouldn't you know that Logan would wake up at 7:00 on the dot? Well we've been busy watching Barney, Sesame Street and Telletubbies. I know I said I would take a nap with him but I had to shower. I can't make it without one. Logan was busy playing this morning and boy did I get some good pics. This boy has a personality that is for sure. He is starting to give me dirty looks even.....ouch. He was flipping his cheerios off the highchair like tiddlywinks and laughing this morning. I know i'll have alot more to write later, but my mind is so full with worry for my family and friends. You know when you feel out of control and it seems that you pray all day long? Well that's how I'm feeling today. I have alot to be thankful for sure, but I have alot of worry right now. My mom is having problems getting better after her knee replacement. She has hit a roadblock. I'm really worried about it. for any of you that read this please pray for her. One of my mommy friends who is pregnant is having complications and might lose her baby. It's really scary for her and anyone with kids know's the worry, i've heard the worry never goes away. Then there is my cousin who has cancer. I think of her alot. She has two little girls that are so cute. This cousin was in high school when i was a little girl and there is alot to be said about looking up to someone. I couldn't wait to grow up and be like her she was so cool. But she didn't act too cool for me even though i was little. Those people always shape you I think. Anyway i may not write tonight because i will be resting. Please remember my mom in your thoughts and prayers.

Ray Charles and wrinkle Cream Take 2

Okay so i thought Blogging, hmmm like a journal but better. Well not so my dears because i lost my post...i can't find it. The main reason is that i renamed my Blog...So that post was really great but i did ramble...heck it was 10:00 then and i was chatting with my friend online. She told me "you're up later than me." This is the friend that i never talk to because she's only online late when i'm asleep.

What am I thinking? I will tell you what i am thinking...I will simply nap with DS tomorrow. Forget the shower or laundry or anything else. We are napping together tomorrow.

Some of you may be jealous, some of you may understand that i have earned these little cat naps. Sure I wake up with drool not only on my face, but on my chest and arms as well....Not only because i sleep with my mouth open, so does my teething son.

DS is Ray Charles, or the Jaimie Fox version at least. He dances, and let me tell you it doesn't matter what it is...but he crouches down and moves his body from side to side and claps to the beat...sometimes on the offbeat...yes he's very talented.

For those that know me, you know that i have a milestone coming up...It's starting to hit me...my twenties are almost over. I'm noticing sagging, wrinkles is it weight loss or just me? So what did i do in the twenties?...Let's recap shall we?

20...I was a student at OSU, trying to navigate through the Psychology Program, Living with my brother in the white cinderblock apt that we kept in our family for almost 5 years.. 21.....well that's self explanatory.....that year was at OSU, and well that's self explanatory too. 22.....first real boyfriend, first real breakup, graduated, backpacked in Europe for a month 23.....worked in my degree at Red Rock driving kids to Rehab, got cussed out and got paid 19K a year for it....meanwile went through 2 transmissions. 24.....worked at North Care, in my degree in OKC, got cussed out and threatened and got paid 21K a year for it. 25.....had enough after coworker killed by same cussing threatening kids and finally got a job as an insurance csr, no degree required, make 23K a year 26.....moved to Tulsa for job paying 28k a year no degree required, met my husband....yada yada yada 27.....still wooing DH till Feb 15 got married 28......went to Cozumel for anniversary and trying to make baby, got pregnant the next month 29......life with new baby...a real adventure 30...doesn't look as bad as before.. Goodnight for now!